Miscarry, get the Death Penalty?!

This makes my blood boil. How could anyone in their right mind think that this is a good idea, or think that because someone miscarried, they were trying to kill their baby? This is insanity to even propose an idea like this. Women who are going through a miscarriage are already so upset, and hurting, regardless of their situation, and you're going to make them go through a process to prove they didn't purposely miscarry?! You have to be a sick, twisted person to think that this is helping ANYONE. This man does not seem to give a damn about women's rights at all, trying to label victims of domestic violence as "accusers,"  and now this. People like this make me fear for the state of the world. This is all probably just a publicity stunt, and won't pass, but it still makes me angry. I could punch this man.

Burnt Out

I am really, really burnt out with school right now. This semester isn't very hard, 3 online classes and they're all pretty simple. It's just, I don't know. I don't feel like trying anymore. I love my Anatomy class, but my other classes just seem so pointless and stupid. My English teacher is a bitch, and said that I had "communication barriers" because I put sky-rocketing, instead of skyrocketing. Talk about nitpicking, lady. One of my other problems is procrastination. I really just can't get the will to do some of the stupid things I'm required to do. I can't wait until I'm done with the BS filler classes and actually get to take some practical ones! I think I'm also just bored with life, in general. I never really do anything or get out, since I don't have money or close friends. I'm hoping to get a Part Time job, which will hopefully fix both of those problem, but will definitely help the money situation. I hope after Spring break I feel a little more into school and hopefully have a better time focusing. Right now I'm procrastinating on writing a paper, but it's not due till Friday so I'm not doing too terrible, yet. Wish me luck!

So adorable!

http://www.thesmokinggun.com/buster/little-monsters/greatest-911-call-ever-placed-four-year-boy-angry-his-dad

Listen to the audio, this little kid is so adorable.

New Look!

I updated my blog theme, and made the header and background myself. I really hate using a "Pre-made" theme scheme, but I'm not that skilled with Photoshop. I still think it looks nice, though, and I hope you like it too!

Bulletstorm!

Got an email from Amazon today, saying that my boyfriend's and I's copy of Bulletstorm had shipped! This game looks amazing. I honestly cannot wait to play it, I loved the demo. One of my complaints thought is that the game doesn't have co-op for single player, and that is one of the main reasons I wanted to originally play it. There is no reason for this game to not have co-op, even though some people seem to think that Cliff B. thinking the game isn't as fun with co-op is a good reason. I'm not Cliff, and I would have a ton of fun in co-op, but I guess he doesn't want me to thoroughly enjoy his game :( Ah well. Me and Jeff will just take turns playing and pretend we're playing co-op. The game will still be a blast, I'm glad we're getting it on the release date.

I downloaded a cool Minecraft Mod. It added bunnies and all kind of birds and other animals and enemies. It added "battle towers" too, which are kind of like above ground dungeons but more difficult.
In other news, Jeff made me the "B" avatar that's on here now, with some input from me. Super girly, but I like it ;)

Scares

So this week my period didn't come. At first I put it up to my body's fucked up-ness, and the fact that my period had started earlier last time.

Five days later, still no period. I was freaking out a little, so today I took a pregnancy test. Negative, thankfully. I'm in college, and poor. I can't handle a baby right now. And my boyfriend would be devastated. But there's a little part of me that kind of wishes I was pregnant. I don't actively want to have a child right now, I want to give my future children the best life they can have, and to do that I need to finish college and save up money. But part of me still wants to see those two little pink lines pop up. The part of me that's always wanted desperately to be a mother, and the part of me that's so terrified I will never get to experience that, since I have PCOS. I'm so scared to be one of those who has to try and try and try to get pregnant, and then miscarries. Those scenarios come straight from my nightmares. I'm still far too young, barely an adult, but I still worry. The future scares me. I just want to not have to worry about things like that, I just want to feel like I'm a "normal" person. I feel so awful reading other women's blogs about their difficulties getting pregnant and staying pregnant, I feel so bad for them. I can't imagine what they're going through, but I feel deep down in my heart that it will happen to me whenever I decide to start trying to conceive. I probably shouldn't read so many baby blogs, actually.